yesterday...i've finally started on my first cello lesson! my fingers almost broke from all the stretching and my brain almost exploded from all the "relaxing"... (seemed to work the other way round).
firstly.. why did i want to give up my former instrument for cello? ok.. it wasn't easy... really.. even though i sucked at it totally.. i was a soloist.. and for a soloist to give up her instrument.. it ain't an easy decision to make.
i've always like cello.. for i've wanted to join a symphony orchestra...before i eventually fell in love with chinese orchestra. i've always liked the sound of the cello.. low... deep... sensual.. and it has the effect when playing really sorrowful songs... (sorry i've always like tragic stuffs). and then.. haha.. guess what.. jay chou plays the cello too! ok.. this reason seems a little shallow.. but... hey.. i really do like it and willing to learn!!
nusco's cello instructor is mr. lee... also the cello instructor of rvco... he's famous for being strict.. so imagine my horror when i first stepped in yesterday... i always melted in fear. but the glad thing was... he was really nice! so that pretty much got my heart beating again. i think he knows i was from rvco but not my section.. haha.. that's good since a senior told me he would probably preach about instru-switching.
mr. lee first taught us how to hold the bow. there were two other freshies.. but they were originally from the cello/bass section... i was the only one who was totally clueless! that pressured me alot.. thank goodness... mr. lee was very patient.. always telling me to relax my hand and arm...
that was the biggest problem! i had to STRAIN to think about... how should i relax?! first.. he told me to relax my fingers... my thumb... then my wrist.. then my elbow... then my shoulder.. then my back.. then my mind. by the time he got to "my mind"... i was like... "ok... how do i relax my mind?!" ...and while wondering.. he suddenly said " yes! that's it!" .. then i was like.... eh..... huh?! hahaha... relaxing's.... never been harder.
he commented my fingers were rather tight.. so now i'm doing hand exercises....twisting my wrist whenever my hand's free from doing anything. haha... and now i must start familarizing myself with the scores.. cuz i could hardly read them! hahaha....
BUT.... if dizi section has less people than expected...i may have to go back. but i do not want to give up my cello.
it's a whole interest versus responsibility problem.
let it resolve itself.
i know i've always lacked determination to win...
time to change?
time to change.
listening to: anson hu feat. ronald cheng -- di yi ci
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