too weak for words
once...
this person's survival depended on me.
not survival maybe. but whether her situation would turn for the better or the worst depended on my choice.
i was the one .. the only one who could have changed this.
but i didn't do what i knew i should do.
for the first time in my life, i felt for myself how weak i can get.
happy new yearwell... happy new year guys! it's the first day of a new year!! i hate how time flies but then again... it always mark a new start~! but it also marks the pending of my graduation! that means i'll be hurled into the harsh realities out there in this vicious world! oh no! so do i like 2006 or not?!
oh well. like anybody cares. hmph.
how did i spend my new year? first, i had qiaoyan, candy, thong, hongyi and nankai over to my place for a steamboat dinner. it got pretty disastrous because we bought too much food. two kilograms of chicken seriously didn't sound like much to me but when it came out.. gee. just looking at it was enough to make me feel full. and after finishing whatever we could (half the chicken went back to my fridge), i seriously thought i was going to throw up. seriously.
i went to watch fireworks by the esplanade. pretty impressive.. fireworks never fail to amaze me. we didn't get to see it at the esplanade itself since we only got out of the house after three hours of eating (see! there really is a lot!). then we finally made our way to the esplanade and after a gruelling time of deciding, we decide to go to millenia walk's paulaner brahaus bar.
by the way, the biggest reason why i don't frequent bars is that i really can't stand beer or whatever liquor/spirits. pure coke is pure bliss (bourbon coke by the way, really do taste like crap). So the next time i step into a bar, no matter how seemingly not-worth the money to just get a glass of coke at a bar at an exorbitant price (11 by the way, at paulaner's..before tax), i'm just going to get it. for my own sake. i'm just going to get it. but this probably also means that i'll never be caught dead in a hangover. lolz.
i got home at 5... did my face mask.. fell asleep and had the mask on for 40 mins past the recommended time. hahaha i'm still tired. and it's a lazy day. i woke up to several messages.. from friends wishing me a good year.
my new year resolutions include:
- keeping healthy. i aim to start exercising regularly. because i wanna try out for spf after grad-ing.
- be smarter. i need a better brain and better thinking skills.
- save money. for my shinhwa concert in seoul. whenever that will be.
- diet. well... i need to. and i say it every year.
- take care of my skin. i'm after all only 21!
- write music. i need to get on with it.
considering that i spent my first moment when the clock struck twelve today standing in front of the bank of china builiding at fullerton and that i picked up ten dollars on the street outside the bar, i reckon i have luck with money in 2006.
i hope.
happy new year ^^
listening to: tvxq -- tri-angle
