apologiesi'm sorry things didn't work out.
i'm sorry i thought it would.
i'm sorry i'm kept out.
i'm sorry i feel sad about it.
i'm sorry i lost the chance.
i'm sorry i'm still thinking i may have another chance.
i'm sorry it all came too late.
i'm sorry i thought this was it.
i'm sorry... it turned out not to be.
listening to: josh groban -- february song
counting downas i sit in my office.. now almost deserted except for a few on-shift personnel.. i'm raring to leave.
i'll be catching
the blood diamond at 9.15...
and my fwen is here!
listening to: myself
firehouse... aren't there just times when you really regret doing something? these are the times when you can't help but go 'what was i thinking?!'...
seriously i'm going through something like that now.
please don't even think i'm only referring to one matter. i think i have to refer to two.. or more things. but it boils down to essentially two.
yeah. i think so... it's two.
i hate to regret things that i have done. although it acts up all the time, it always makes me feel horrible.
first up, i regret the first thing that i did because it exposed me to things that were ... well.. less beautiful than i thought. i thought that was really sad. considering that i really really thought it was something nice. but then again... i should have known better. after all, i have not seen enough of everything... which could exactly be why i painted such a beautiful picture, against all odds.
and the second, i regret the second .. but actually i can't really regret the second thing because it isn't really a 'thing' or a specific 'action'... i think it's a whole string of it tied together to finally become this one collective event. at exactly which part of this event that i regret.. i can't really pinpoint either. i don't really think i'm making too much sense here but it's okay. i'm trying to understand myself too! i think i regret every step of it. i regret not turning away when i had the chance to.
oh wells. that's what makes up life right.
listening to: mayday -- born to love
girl's night out
well.. so months after talking about it, i finally made my way to st. james power station! haha.. to be exact, i've been wanting to go since it opened last year. but oh wells.. one can never be too late to check out somewhere exciting right?!
i was having a really bad day.. man i don't even want to go into details cuz i would start going crazy all over again.. and having a headache right now as i'm writing is not helpful. thanks to nel and yuenling, they made me smile again~ and well... i guess what started out like crap ended well, fortunately!
we started the evening with a korean dinner at chinatown.. i've been craving kimbap for soooo long and finally i had the chance to have it yesterday! not the best kimbap around, i've tasted better ones and i really really miss the one at seoul's myeongdong train station. it was superb. just a thousand won and you got yourself a solid filling kimbap. shiat.. i want it! we had kimchi chigae, tteokbokki, pajeon and bulgogi with lettuce.. YUMMY. i love lettuce and bulgogi together.. heavenly!
after that, i was planning to head to cafe iguana down at riverside for some margaritas. i remember their lime margarita was solid... but nel said she's meeting her friends (some i know too~) over at st. james.. well i didn't want to go but then.. still i ended up there! first time being there for the 3 of us.. and it didn't go well at first!
we were there for a nus bash.. but holy! they ran out of drink coupons! that's pretty silly, no? some caucasian students asked us about it and they were shocked to find out about the lack of drink coupons. hahaha.. poor peeps.. and they are still full-time students! haha.. we still managed to share a blueberry vodka (tasted fine).. and we decided that the music at Powerhouse (our first stop) sucked.. so we went on to explore the other clubs.
it seemed like a retro night.. at least the music at Dragonfly was! lol.. that place was packed... and nel spilled her tequila shot all over my bag. shiat. lol.. the waiter was kind enough to give me some tissue but apparently.. HE knocked into nel and that's why i got the blow. haha.. but it's okay. i passed him all the rubbish after that. haha.
we went up to mono after that.. someone was singing some jacky cheung songs! lol.. i must go there someday and shriek the hell out of everyone.
then we went to movida.. hmmm.. nice music man! they played indian music.. then after that they started having a cuban band.. pretty cool.. but there was no space at all.
i'm not a live band person.. i prefer listening to justin timberlake through the speakers over live bands anytime.. but after visiting tiger live, i think bands are fine. only if they are performing at tiger live.. because that's the only place where i can hear fergie's songs done live. haha ain't that cool? the dancers were pretty good too.. though they dress funnily~
we took a quick look at the gallery bar.. hmm.. i don't exactly think it would be a good place to chill out. too noisy... i'd still prefer to go to iguana for a good chill-out session.
peppermint park would be nice though.. i love the seats! sooo cool.. even when it rains.. it's no problem at all since it has shelter!
well i think i still missed out some other clubs like the boiler room and berllini but oh wells.. there's always the next time ^^
by the way.. i'm soooo into jesse mccartney these days.
listening to: jesse mccartney -- right where you want me
analogyit's almost as if there's a string tied around me.
i can go as far as i can..
and all it takes is just one pull to bring me back to square one.
then the cycle repeats itself all over again. and again.
one day the string will snap.
so simply let that happen.. or keep me at square one forever.
listening to: faith yang -- wo li kai wo zi ji
happy new yearooh. it's 2007 already.
i'm feeling lethargic.. very lethargic.
but in any case, happy new year to everyone!
let's all pray for a better 2007.
listening to: seo dong yo
