hair hair.. gritty
haha..oh well... damn me.. damn my fear of my parents fainting.. i didn't bleach my hair this time round... dyed it to a mahogony shade.. and bleached only a few streaks.. wasn't as drastic as i thought.. but i really dun bear putting my poor hair throughall the bleaching.. the nicest colour won't do with hay-like hair i suppose...
alright. .then perhaps when it's longer.. haha.. i've come up with all the plans for it...
when it's:
shoulder length -- bleach
longer than that -- all black..
ooh.. dun u just love goth?
listening to: mayday -- ci xiong tong ti
wishes wishes
watched
wishing stairs with candy and shuz... quite startling and i must say that i enjoyed it.. the girl who played the one with the lesbian-hint, park han byul looks like jeon ji hyun soooo much ( anyway that's jeon ji hyun as my header)... i had wanted to put something from that movie.. but thought that using jeon ji hyun would be.. more harmless.. but anyway.. i love this picture.. i always have this thing about people's look in their sleep... this picture's from her own ghost movie
the uninvited anywayz.. haha.. ghost ghost ghost.
but the move
wishing stairs was very fruitful.. it made me wanna learn korean.. and made me realize that long hair looks best when it's black.. shiny black. and today being the last day of my hair being black.. at least not til it's long.. haha.. i look forward to my heavily bleached hair tomorrow.
byebye hair.. byebye smoothness.. byebye silkiness..
it's going to be nothing but treatment... and treatment.. and more treatment...
listening to: jang hwa, hong ryun ost -- a tale of two sisters
finale
well well.. what do you know? the gruelling exam period is finally over and tomorrow i shall be going on a new blasting... killing routine of... WORK!
oh in fact.. it's not tomorrow.. it's in less than 8 hours.. oh my god. someone tell me how i landed in this shit.
oh well but anyway.. today's essay question for crime fiction was a disaster... a PURE disaster.. had no idea what the question wanted but had no time to do otherwise or think too much.. what the hell...
my hair's slated for a change this saturday morning.. ah huh.
can't hardly wait. haha.. just hope that i won't turn out like shit or something. haha.
oh yes and i felt so accomplished.. i could recognize l'arc~en~ciel.. their song came up on tv just now and i recognized it.
man.. i feel achieved. haha..
listening to: l'arc~en~ciel -- finale
in the mood for love
haha.. well well.. first of all... a new layout!! i really like this.. cuz i can change the header picture anytime i want.. and now currently.. above is nakashima mika... a 20 yr old japanese singer with looks to kill and a sultry voice.. man.. i'll give anything to be her. haha...
anyway.. updates on my exam last friday... social work.. man.. never been to an exam less prepared than this~~ haha.. let's just say i went in with much of my memory blank... haha.. couldn't finish the two essays... the big M must come into play or i'm really a goner..
these two days... i doing quite a bit of abstract lyrics... haha.. i guess it's a form of maturation? perhaps eventually i'll do more visual-imagery kinda lyrics.. or things that involves... more... different things.. like..hints of sexual stuffs? hahaha...
two down... three to go.
listening to: faye wong -- bu liu
nothing left
i gave you the sensation, i gave him the days
i gave you smiles, i gave him my grace
i gave you my longing, i gave him the time
i gave you my tears
i gave you the photos, i gave him the dates
i gave you the colours, i gave him the scenery
i gave you distance, i gave him silence
i gave you the fireworks, i gave him the occasion
i gave you the tickets, i gave him the seat
i gave you the candlelight, i gave him the dinner
i gave you the song, i gave him the microphone
i gave you my voice, i gave him the view
i gave you the story, i gave him the ending
i gave you the crystal shoes... i gave him the twelve strikes of the clock
i gave you my heart, i gave him my body
wanting nothing left
no more burdens
if i still have sadness.. let the wind take it away
if i still have happiness....
if i still have sadness.. let the wind take it away
if i still have happiness....
maybe.
listening to: faye wong -- bu liu
grief.bereavement.
social work paper's coming on friday.. but i didn't study at all today. which means tomorrow's gonna be a really bad day.
i spent the whole of my today at the hospital.. where my uncle's losing his trail of life.. bit by bit. as he lies.. on his deathbed.. i looked upon.. with tears in my eyes.. but carefully not letting them fall.
i've never been very close with my uncle.. he had always been a figure of authority... and i always feared his stern look.. but today as i looked at him.. he had been reduced to nothing but a frail body... he could merely opened his eyes when my siblings and i visited him.. and by evening.. he wasn't even concious at all.
the air was filled with sadness and tension.. the doctor warned of my uncle's demise... predicting that he won't last til morning.. eyes went red and swollen.. silent tears fell... we knew this was coming since.. say last week? but no one could really take it in their strides when it does happen. my father shed tears.. my mother as well..
my father's eldest brother's wife came in the last minute. she was informed since june.. and til now.. she finally appeared. why? i could not understand.. whatever hatred u had with a person.. shouldn't everything be bygone at the latter's deathbed? she came.. she cried.. asking my uncle to wake up and see her.. i was appalled... repulsive to its greatest extent. how fake can someone get? my father.. my mother.. my uncle's wife.. they were all expecting this show.
all my respect for her? gone.. in a second.
what a revelation.
what a shame.
listening to: mayday -- ci xiong tong ti
shipwreck
man.. what a wreck i'm in now.. just came back from my psychology paper and guess what.. i'm going to fail what i wanna major in. damn it. haha..
heck.. let's hope the big M (moderation..whatever) will come into play in every subject i have...
sigh.. just like what mayday's
time machine sings ...
"so regretful... so sad... can i go back?"
right.. put me back there again.. and i'll still flunk...where's the sense in that?
haha.
listening to: mayday -- shi guang ji
nice nice nice
man.. this will use a lot of bleach. but heck.. i don't care anymore! and i'm falling in love with outgrowns.. haha...~ this will GUARANTEE a lot of outgrowns~ and super obvious at that.. nice huh?
but i think my father will faint. haha..
listening to: jay chou -- gui ji
before i forget
man.. these two days.. my md player is just replaying jay chou's latest songs,
gui ji and
duan le de xian... haha i can really confirm that i won't watch the silly show
hidden track (xun zhao zhou jie lun)... cuz the story doesn't appeal..but the ost is a sure-buy...
exams are cominG!! in a week to be exact.. someone tell me this isn't real!! haha.. sianz la..
anyway..gotta keep this short. haha...
will do my own review of the matrix revolutions which i watched on saturday..
brilliant. marvellous.
listening to: jay chou -- gui ji
hwah hwah hwah
man i'm running out of words.. using the same "word" as title for two straight entries. haha...
anyway.. i got back my crime fiction term paper back today.. and however-the-higher-power-up-there bless, i got a B for it! oh my gawd.. it's been ten years since i last got anything above the C grade! haha.. to be exact.. it's been 2 years actually.. cuz the last time i got B was for o levels! haha... pathetic.. *slap forehead*
but anyway.. i'm going to get back my social work term paper tomorrow and i'm so bloody sure that i'm not going to even get a C for it.. cuz really... i had no idea what the hell i was writing.. man.. skipping lectures are bad. the effect is fully proven. to me at least. haha.... and then it will be the exams. and then that means i'm dead. and no more and-thens.
i came across this really good song from the new korean drama
yeoruem hyanggi.. that's
summer scent in english anyway.. starring song seung hun (song cheng xian.. if u ain't familiar with korean spellings) and soo ye jin... i must say mr. song now looks so much better than in
autumn's tale (qiu tian de tong hua).. i hated him and that show.. haha... and soo ye jin is quite pretty.. hmm.. feel like watching it.. haha ... the story's a drag though.. haha.. song's girlfriend died on their wedding.. and soo got a heart transplant thanks to her.. and they meet one day.. and blah blah blah blah. but the music's so nice i wanna listen to it. haha.
listening to: jung in ho -- bi mil (yeoruem hyanggi ost)
hwah
haha.. i just came back from my japanese oral test.. and guess what.. it sucked big time! haha.. i cannot believe that someone like me.. who craps and talk so much crap during class (even after class) got so quiet during the tesT~~ sob sob~~~
right now.. i'm listening to mayday's new song..
du shen (god of gamblers)...my god.. the mtv is THE BEST ever... it depicts how a wrong step can bring disasters... at first.. mayday got together and staged a shootout in a casino..trying to run away with all the money.. but eventually they got subdued.. and eventually all got shot... my god.. u should have seen how a-shin fell... and as a-shin lied on the ground...
suddenly it was another situation.. of what would have happened if they didn't do the shootout.. they won the game.. and still got all the money..
guess the songs trying to tell how life is a gamble... we stake... we pray... we get.. we lose.. we don't know the ending.. but we can choose.
love one of the lines inside... which when translated go..
"how do one Almighty stand against ten thousand kinds of greed".
COOL.
listening to: mayday -- du shen
unwell
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
listening to: matchbox twenty -- unwell
pink.. pinky...pinkish
haha.. nice page now isn't it.. now that i've changed the whole layout to a pinkish one.. it bears resemblance to my first blog.. the blue one.. but considering that this one wasn't as ready made as the first one.. it took me quite a long long while to finish it.. in fact.. it took me like half an hour to complete configuring all the html.. *phew*
well.. at the side there are some sorta like self profile kinda thing.. well that pretty saves me the chore of doing a homepage! ahhaa.. but perhaps i'll still do one.. when i'm free.. after the exams maybe.
there's go go yubari at the side... man.. i love her. haha...go go yubari is a japanese girl in the movie
kill bill... she's sweet, young, wears pretty uniform and wields a killer iron chain-cum-ball weapon.. my god.. time i get the dvd man.. since it's ra.. sadded..
was having some problems with blogger just now...SOOO afraid that it'll die on me like last time.. my god. but goodness it's back.. haha..
i've been searching for blog layouts.. and perhaps i'll change the layout more on a regular basis.. nothing beats freshness~
with japanese oral test and exams coming around the corner.. it's little wonder that i'm starting to panic.. haha.. gotta do some work later manz... and i've discovered a wonderful singer.. shimokawa mikuni... rather well-known among anime fans.. since many of her songs were OPs and EDs... i've randomly downloaded some other songs from her single which wasn't featured in any anime.. and boy.. it's a gem~~!!! haha.. man... i always feel so good when i hear good songs...
listening to: shimokawa mikuni -- again
