gyahalright, so mingjie was saying that i'm being lazy and requested me to update my blog. haha. okay so it's been two weeks. that's really long.
so what happened in this two weeks?
in just two weeks, i...
- fell in love with nicholas teo. okay.. so i used to hate him and condemned him as niang. i eat my words. he's freaking cute.. and i just love his big sheepish grin. argh. sometimes i hate it when i have to like someone whom i previously condemned.
- dyed my hair red. not very obvious.. i didn't dare to do too drastic a colour in case it doesn't suit me.. since i never had my hair in red before. now i think it's gorgeous (yes it is. bite me.) and i will make it sharper by highlighting it next month.. when i get my pay. gees.
- am going for another interview.. somewhere in changi. not exactly what i'm looking for .. but if the people there are cute, i wouldn't mind.
- received an invitation to join sdu. no, please don't exclaim. if you are a fresh graduate, you'll get your letter too. my mother and my sister are so enthu about it.
- switched from SE z610i to SE w800i. that's a leap backwards. but i chose w800i because it's orange/white and it's candybar. not too new a phone but i haven't had a candybar in years so imma get it. and z610i doesn't allow for accessories. there's no place to hang it. i don't understand. i will ask SE about it.
- got myself red glasses. as in.. red-framed. wooo. nice huh? i'm so into colours nowadays.
sigh. i'd better not forget to update my blog again..
listening to: jay chou -- mi die xiang
solverwell.. with regards to yesterday's interview...
i can only say it's a disappointment..
i didn't like the job scope and how it sounded to me. it felt like sales.. except that the product here is your organ. get what i mean? i'm not saying that this position is a facade.. a farce.. a lie. it only does not fit what i was looking for. so no offence.
maybe i was right. my whole dream was glamourized and merely a product of misleading mass media.
so what do i do? hang around and hope for the best? i hope i get what i'm really wishing for. i just wish someone would ask.
listening to: evanescence -- call me when you're sober
troublemakeras if my life is not exciting enough... i have to do something to add on to it. now i'm caught in another dilemma and it's something that.. i don't see myself coming out of. even if i do... it would most likely end up with a wrong decision made.
so i applied for another job. well.. this time, as a transplant counsellor. but here's the catch...
i'm liking my current job.. i mean i'm surprised, but i've grown to like it. it's very much due to the people around me. my colleagues and my managers... it's not easy to find co-workers who can click with you so easily, is it? i still think i can do something more challenging.. but then.. getting used to something can be so powerful. it stops you from doing something else... it stops you from exploring.
working in a hospital setting is something i've always wished for. maybe too much tv in the past... maybe it's been glamourized. and thus... maybe my aspiration to become a counsellor could all be due to misconception. now that i face it.. i wonder if i'm suitable for it. facing grieving families... can this be something that i can handle?
perhaps i'm too young.. perhaps i need more life experience.. perhaps i need some time before i become emotionally stable (because i know for now, i'm extremely volatile). perhaps this IS the job for me.. but not now.
but do opportunites come by again?
listening to: fish leung -- qin qin
originsokay.. so well, now that i'm in the mood, let's quickly capitalize it and update my trip to jakarta. memorable one, since it's my, well, first business trip. wow, that sounds high class eh? suddenly i picture myself as some high flying career woman, decked in a smart suit...
no i'm dreaming. i was more of an extra baggage to the finance department of my company.
anyways... so i went to jakarta on thursday 6th october with my manager, uncle (well.. names have been changed to protect the innocent). he's not old but he's not called an uncle for no reason... which is not the main focus of this story so let's move on.. okay let me see what i remember.. it was an early flight... and singapore air flight at that. this name i don't have to change because, well they should thank me for mentioning them. the flight is really good.. i mean.. well they have games to play! although i only found out last minute... bummers. food is good too.. i have a strong interest towards airplane food, contrary to most travellers. maybe i'm not seasoned enough, oh well.
the hotel that we stayed in was pretty posh. i mean it looked better than i expected... and my room is niceeee.
it looks very much like the room i stayed in when i was in kl six years back. eh... well.. that sorta dispelled my fears... i have never stayed in a hotel room myself before and trust me, i was freaking scared before going on this trip. i mean SERIOUSLY. i can get scared being alone in my own house, imagine me in jakarta. i spent all my night sin jakarta with my lights and the tv on. but at least they have nhk and kbs.. and i was alternating between these two stations.
indonesians, from what i observed, are very into doughnuts/donuts.. whatever. i see a donut shop at every corner and just by looking at the donuts they sell gave me a sugar rush, i felt sick already.
from j.co... part of breadtalk in indonesia. they have all kinds of flavours. but still.. i think i prefer auntie anne's pretzels over doughnuts anytime of the day. 
doughnuts from another shop.. it was never eaten in the end because it was tumbled here and there and was left inside a car boot for over an hour. i wish i opened it up.. at least just to find out how hideous it became. so there were times that i was alone in jakarta because uncle left for another city/town/state/eh... (i don't know. i mean.. i suck in geography and i'm not going to bother looking up the map just to explain =D). thanks to uncle's friend (no names.. as usual)... i still managed to have some authentic indonesian cuisine and bought some local food stuffs.
basically i was there for an education fair. eh.. i don't know what else i should say about the work i did. erm.. so let's just skip it.
it can get very boring in the hotel... shops around close at nine and that's like.. early. i can't step out of the hotel at all because there are slums everywhere, it's too dangerous (uncle's friend reminded me many times not to step out at all)... so... tv was my only companion. and did i mention that the bathtub was SO slippery, i always almost fell? thank god for the bar support at the side.
the scenery outside my room. pretty neat, yeah? all the lights.. although that meant there was a traffic jam outside... although it's none of my business. haha.
i have made it a personal aim to try out starbucks in every country that i visited. well.. all i can say is.. jakarta's tastes better than thailand's. 
my singapore air boarding pass!! if not for this trip, i would probably never have visited jakarta, nor sit on sQ... at least not in the near future.
not to forget, a picture of myself~!well.. alright.. so sleeping alone in a hotel room is not that scary.
listening to: utada hikaru -- passion
catching upi've slacked in my blogging and i'm tasting the fruits.
from august to september, i never really blogged much.. so here's what you guys missed in my life.. i'm too lazy to write everything in details and i can't remember most of it anyways.
in august, i:
- went to thailand ~ 18 to 20 August ~ it's a hellish trip. but then again, when you go to a country where you don't understand their language (they don't really understand you either) without much planning or even a freaking map, you can't expect much. in fact, hellish is an understatement. i mean.. seriously. it was a trip primarily for the shinhwa concert..
- got the ball rolling on my first job. i don't know if i mentioned where before but i won't make direct references from now on. i don't wanna be thrown into jail for saying the wrong things or whatever. well.. not a very cushy job.. but i hate the people who i have to deal with most of the time (no mentioning of the country either).
and in september, i:
- met my dear. they came to singapore finally.. very very overwhelming.. but i wouldn't want to say it again because it would be too long. in any case, he smiled at me. my dear smiled at me.
- celebrated my 22nd birthday. uneventful.. but my colleagues were so sweet to buy me a cake. it was cheesecake.. but i make better ones. seriously.
wow. actually pretty short eh? goes to show how lazy i am.
anyway i just got back from jakarta this afternoon. it was a business trip (although i didn't serve too great a purpose while i was there. i was stoning most of the time). i'll def talk about this in more details since it's fresh in my mind. maybe after dinner... after i feel less nauseous.
too much seaweed is bad for health.
listening to: pussycat dolls -- beep
