to be you for a day
i don't want
to be taken lightly by you anymore
but yet i still can't fight against it
afraid to show my unhappiness in front of you
i don't want
to let love be looked down anymore
but yet i never had that kind of determination
to stand up to you
my heart which i've given away
why does it not reap any fruits?
all my efforts have gone to waste
how sad that i can still know the difference
and realize that what you are giving me is just pity
i just want to be you for a day
live under your skin for a day
understand your feelings.. facing all that limelight
your joy with a little frustration
you should be me for a day
live with my feelings for a day
exhausting all my passion and determination
still to be rejected by you
how unfair to me.
i just want to be you for a day
use your name for a day
so as to let my tired heart be as one with yours
and i'll see it as my wildest dream come true
you should be me for a day
live with my feelings for a day
exhausting all my passion and determination
still to be rejected by you
how unfair to me.
listening to: jolin tsai -- zuo yi tian de ni
dumpling day is here to stay
judging from the fact that i've even made this title rhyme (what am i thinking really).. it goes to show how much i love dumplings. haha...
i've currently in love with dumplings.. all thanks to a friend...who showed me pictures of dumplings he made for new year with his hall mates..argh.. so finally..today.. i was determined enough to go eat the dumplings.. jiao zi... i prefer calling them this.. at the famous tian jin something something stall at nus biz sch.. with candy..thanks to her cuz if she not with me.. i really no mood to go queue. hahaa.. the queue was scary.. but the good thing is ... the jiao zi's came pretty fast.. hahaa
they are pretty nice.. juicy.. the meat's pretty good.. well.. considering that although it's not the best jiao zis around.. but definitely the most accessible ones.. i'll make thursdays my jiao zi day.. so .. hahaha.. candy please feng4 pei2 hor. hahaha
it's been a very very wet new year.. argh. raining all the day.. i'm exhausting all my three-quarter pants.. argh..
hahaa..
and yah.. candy ah. we can have jiao zi on sunday!! hehehe
listening to: myself
dreamer
i'm dreaming my life away..caught in this web of unfounded hopes and impossible realities. i've been telling myself that... i should wake up by now.. but yet.. everyday i fall deeper into this whirlpool.. unable to relieve myself of this burden.
what am i hoping for? what do i want to see coming out of it?
i can't tell.. for i have no idea what i myself wants anymore.. it's hard for me to break away totally from this.. i know i need to get away but yet i face it so often. at the face of it.. i can't leave.. i can't just turn away. it always catches hold of me and makes me weak in the knees everytime.
it hasn't destroyed me. it wouldn't.. i'm very sure of that at least. but yet again.. it clouds my heart and my determination to stay out of this. it takes time to build it up again..
i don't know.
listening to: zhang z-chen -- huan ri xian
happy chinese new year
as the title goes.. happy cny everyone! hahaha
listening to: w-inds. -- game
loving you~~~~~
oshio manabu san!!!!
ah hem...proudly presenting.. my latest love interest from the ranks of japanese actors... oshio manabu!!!! hahahaha.. okie.. sorry .. sometimes i just get soo carried away but just let me indulge and allow me to go ranting about him yeah~
actually i've liked oshio-san for quite a long time.. at first.. his appearance in
love revolution quite disturbed me since he was going against fujiki naohito... haha.but eventually i found out that he's a talented young man. he can sing... pretty well.. his english is SUPER GOOD... he writes all his songs... and he can do a decent rock number... WOO HOO!
okie..so why did my "love" for him rekindle? haha.. cuz of the japanese drama
double score.. currently showing on scv... oh man... he IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE inside! so cute that i've decided to buy the vcds as well~ hahah.. in it he plays a police officer, kawamura etsuro.. who's a graduate from the top university... he goes by the book.. does everything in order... wears suit and tie with a super stylo long coat.. and he gets partnered with sorimachi takashi.. a no-rules cop.. shoots everyone in range and is best at doing repentant letters... ahaha.. quite a typical storyline but sorimachi-san and oshio-san had such good chemistry..
and it's very very refreshing to see oshio-san taking up a role so stern and cute and totally blur.. haha.. since he's quite a hardcore person in real life.. hehe.. he always smile so cutely when he faces weird problems and it's hilarious seeing him transform into a tough cop from a go-by-the-book one.. especially when he tried to imitate sorimachi in terms of attire and the way of doing things...
oh dear.. it's so good.. i can't explain here. i buying the vcd.. so anyone interested.. come borrow from me.. and i bet u'll enjoy it~ and plus their theme song is chemistry's it takes two.. oooh.. another wonderful duo.
listening to: chemistry -- it takes two
my immortal
if you were to leave, i wish that you'd just leave
happy 25th birthday, jay chou!
listening to: final fantasy X-2 -- eternity ~memories of lightwaves~
on the search for material
right... four people will fully understand my obsession for t-shirts of a certain material... namingly junming, benjamin, wanz and siva... sorry guys...
haha.. it all happened a few days ago.. when i found out that my current favourite brand of t-shirt...abercrombie & fitch.. a rather old name ... is available in singapore .. particularly f.o.s at marina square... but when i got there... sadded... the designs were pathetically few... hahaa.. thus i returned home empty handed... while siva bought something instead... and my hot-headed pursuit of this wonderful brand has made me a joke to the guys. hmph. hahaha
today we had practices for the competition song.. and we added new elements.. eggshakers... a new bridge.. and i had a dream yesterday about the finals.. and guess what.. tony leung chiu wai talked to me.. and i fainted on stage.. and everyone had a good time while our song came on.. but i was supposed to have fainted.. oh well.. dreams are never really in a single shot one right? hahaha... oooh.. tony leung... hahaa....
listening to: nothing
happy
i'm so glad. my resolution to drop my crush has finally been put into action. that would be my first goal that has been met in 2004.
i don't feel sad at all. why should i be? hahha... before anything.. isn't it better like this?
i feel like.. my shoulders are light.. my vision is clear.. my mind is set. haha..
move on. let's all move on.
farewell...
keke~
listening to: faye wong -- cheng ke
aloha 2004
haha... it's always good to go into the new year.. cuz that's really evidence of you staying alive. haha...
the last hours of 2003 was a very.. .bizarre one.. haha.. my original plan was to sleep through to the new year... but i ended up sleeping at 9am in the morning since i only reached home at 8+!
i worked til 12.30pm.. with complimentary nasi lemak from my boss.. don't ask me why it's nasi lemak.. i haven't figured it out yet... but it was pretty nice... except that the chili looked like it doesn't cost a cent.. the fish was only like.. half the size of that enormous amount of chili. yikes. but work was pretty slack la.. considering that EVERYONE is a holiday mood liew... who cares man.. everyone was talking to everyone.. something that irene, jingxian and i do EVERY single day. muah ha ha ha ha.
after that .. i went home to sleep... well.. i was tooooooo tired for anything else... had wanted to go giordano.. buy some clothes before the GSt hike.. but i gave up.. the idea of succumbing to my dear bed and my pillow is just too appealing. haha... thus i went home.. and slept.. .or a full 3 hours.. before heading to the cinema fo r julia robert's
mona lisa smile... the show was a little slow.. but i like julia roberts.. haha...
well..after that i went for supper with my sister.. when my co senior huiling called... asking me if i wanna join her for a countdown esplanade.. and thus a journey to look for dai da, joyce and her, all my nusco frens, at the marina square games arcade took place.. argh.. let's just say it took countless phone calls and searching to find them... but it was quite a bad time.. it seemed that when i rang up dai da, i just walked past the daytona racing stations... cuz he heard from my call the same sounds exactly from his game.. so he turned around but didn't see.. i walked away already i guess.. then he crashed his car.. oops.. paiseh.. haha.. moral of the story? NEVER arrange to meet friends at a game arcade. you'll NEVER HEAR FIND ONE ANOTHER.
we were playing games... Pop 'N' Dance... when i was looking at the E-zone electronic credit counter... and realized.. it was 12.03am. i turned around and screamed... "We missed the countdown!" ... huiling and joyce was like... oops. we totally defeated our purpose of meeting in the first place. haha.. up til now.. i still can't quite believe that i went into the new year like that. argh.
after games... we went for a round of pool.. man.. i only remember the last time i played pool was when i watched
american sweethearts with junming, chuanz, wanz and nez.. that must be like more than one and a half years ago! haha... and huiling was such an expert in it.. andrew as well.. i pitted my skills against dai da and lost by a slight margin! hmph.. but well.. i'm glad i've picked it up again.. oh dear.. yet another distraction from my studies! haha...
we went to the esplanade.. sat in the middle of nowhere after pool and started talking... so many things... haha.. i can't remember most of it now.. too much details.. too much things...andrew had to leave for church service.. and the rest of us made our way to the mac restaurant at marina square at 7 in the morning... phew.. by the time we were there.. all of us were pretty washed out.. noticeably huiling and dai da.. one can't keep her eyes open.. the other can't feel a thing.. not even the burning hot mcmuffin... until minutes later. haha..
i was pretty awake. THEN. but when i got home. i was like... OH DEAR. and i dropped dead.. waking up only at 11 plus.. when my father called home to tell me that he was stuck in the lift with my mum.. i had to rush downstairs.. call up the life servicing people.. and float back to sleep again.. waking up only at 3.00pm. haha...
and there u have it. the most exciting, unbelievable... crossover to 2004. haha.. i'm glad that i've made a few better friends with those nusco mates of mine in the process.. and picking up my pool skills again. you know.. i really think i look rather cool while doing pool.
happy new year!
listening to: zhang z-chen -- huan ri xian
