all along.. it was nothing more than a game.
sometimes... i just think of you.
think of everything you said... think of everything you did.. think of whatever happened between us.
it was a sweet moment. i couldn't bring myself to break that kind of uncertainty. it did make everything look so beautiful... so unknown...so uncertain. we didn't know whether there was a next step... what we could have done to go on to the next step...or maybe... we just didn't want to go to the next step. maybe you wanted to move on alone. maybe i was just dreaming.
but it was nice. it always brings a smile to my face... after all.. that was the sweetest thing anyone ever said to me. maybe i had indeed misplaced my confidence.. but ... i perhaps will stand by that.
time passed.. things changed. you are not the same old you.. while i'm not exactly the same me now. but i do miss you sometimes.
i do miss you.
listening to: cheer chen -- lu xing de yi yi
je t'aime
i had a beautiful the night before.. not last night of course since i could hardly fall asleep after all the... bad experience.. haha... and i swear it's one of the most beautiful dream i've ever had for as long as i could remember.
i had worked for some time.. and suddenly i had the urge to go somewhere for a breather.. thus i bought a ticket to paris and off i went to the most romantic city. haha.. the last scene.. i was walking on a bridge.. by a beautiful river during sunset.. the beautiful glowing sun reflected on the water... i was wearing a long trench coat.. a big scarf and a woolen cap while carrying my luggage...
it's a short dream but it makes me feel sooooo good.
listening to: nothing
i hate gore... like... totally!
i've just came back from a very very very disturbing movie...
dawn of the dead with candy, qiaoyan and xiao di. it is very sad that i've probably watched only like.. what.. one-quarter of the movie? haha...
it's totally gore and blood. less blood than
kill bill definitely... but totally ten times more gross.. why? i think it's cos everyone of them look 10000 times worse than anyone who got killed in kill bill? hahaha.. pathetic... and the story is bad. at least kill bill is about killing bill.. you know? there's an ultimate aim to this whole blood spree... but in dawn of the dead.. people just got infected by the virus and start biting each other. okie.. literally sink their teeth into one another. then u die.. then u get revived into one of them.
the whole plot is clueless.. where did the virus come from? how did it come? what is the ultimate aim of this whole biting thing? why did half the population disappear from one exploding gas canister? why is the bimbo a redhead? or plainly.. what is wrong with everyone?
haha.. okie.. bad movie. i almost wanted to just walk out halfway cuz all the screaming and the skin tearing and the growling was getting on my nerves.. but the thought of my 8.50 kept me going. okie... since i only watched one quart of it.. my 8.50 is still pretty wasted.. but that's something else. haha..
enough of the gory details... after the bad experience in the cinema.. haha.. we went to lips (after much consideration and objection from xiao di. haha) for a drink.. haha.. food the whole day was not very well.. at least the service.
TCC at cine is bad. i mean.. totally bad. we sat there.. the waiter wanted us to give him a minute before he get back to us.. and we totally sat there unnoticed by any waitress there for what.. 5 minutes? okie. .seems like a short time.. but we have a movie going on in 30 minutes.. we totally have no time to lose. i finally got so fed up i just decided that we leave for fastfood. haha.. xiao di is totally impressed. haha.. then we went to bk.. and ended up i had to ask two caucasian guys to spare us the empty seats beside them. haha.. i always do this kinda thing i think. haha..
moral of the story.. the next time we meet for any movie.. we really need to meet like 3 hours before. hahaa..
and i realized i'm overusing the word "totally".
like.. totally!
listening to: cheer chen -- lu xing de yi yi
the same old brand new me.
wow wow wow.. lulu... my favourite character from final fantasy x...(she looks totally captivating.. i sometimes find her more attractive than yuna really.) has finally made it to my blog. i don't know. have i ever had an anime-like skin before? i don't think so... this is my first one i guess.. haha...
well well.. exams are just over and right now.. my holiday job is starting next week. pretty fast... so many things going on.
i have songs that are yet written (i'm sorry partner.. i'm just too plain lazy) and work is setting in. i'm soon going to go back to the 8.30am to 5pm routine kinda life.. oh my god. someone tell me this is not going to be what i'll have to do for the rest of my working life in the future.
*shiver*
listening to: f.i.r -- lydia
unpredictable. unfathomable.
i don't understand really.. how the world works.
my uncle passed away.. yesterday. in malaysia..in a freak car accident.
i won't replicate the details.. but the worst thing is... a container.. u know.. those.. u weigh by tonnes... fell on my uncle's friend's car... and both of them.. well.. pretty smashed up literally. it was a big thing on the malaysia papers.. my father wanted to pass me the papers.. but i don't dare to see it.
timid? coward? and i thought i love violence.
okay. i love violence.. but not when it involves my relatives really.
something like that happens every exam period.
1998 .. my pri sch classmate passed away on the eve of my history exam.
2000 .. i spent most of my a levels preparation time in hospital with my sis.
2003 .. my uncle passed away before my social work paper.
2004 .. another uncle passed away before my chinese paper.
what is cursed?
exams? nus? or just me?
gee.
listening to: longview -- can't explain
an adventure... part 3
she joined everyone else... overridden with fear that someone would find out her real identity...
suddenly someone screamed: " look out there! one of them is there! at the window!"
she quickly looked out and indeed.. one of them was trying to leave the area....she quickly ran out and wanted to go after it... but somehow.. she was unable to move as fast as she would like.. the road was unusually slippery.. and there was so great a wind that she kept falling down..
suddenly.. a guy spoke: "let me help you." she turned around.. he was one of the students.. and he looked like he had discovered her secrets.. however... he went on to fire his gun.. and there was a long line..."follow that." he said...
she smiled and thanked him and indeed.. she can move so much faster now. just then.. he appeared.. and shouted: "where are you going?!" she panicked and tried to move faster ahead.. but he caught up with her by the beach....
it was the most beautiful beach... coconut trees..sandy... and crystal clear blue waters.. it was the most beautiful beach anyone can find in the world.. or even in his or her imagination..
then i woke up. hehe.
listening to: clay aiken -- invisible
an adventure... part 2
soon.. before anyone knew it.. she had spent quite some time in school.. she made new friends and often spent time with him and some other friends over at same corridor along the school building... she didn't tell anyone that the corridor look unusually familiar.. the layout.. the windows from the buildings facing it.. she must have been here before...
the day came when she somehow decided that she would check out that place herself.. nothing too surprising took place and she couldn't remember exactly the memories and things about it... just when she was about to leave... something grabbed her by the neck....
she couldn't see what it was... but soon after... he appeared... "let her go!'' he screamed.. and from reflection from the windows.. she saw what was grabbing her.. a hideous creature... it said something to him..which she did not manage to hear because of fear and shock.. but it then let go of her and a fight between them ensued. she was too surprised by his slick moves and skills...and eventually.. it ran away, defeated.
"now you know. they have come. we must all fight against it to survive." he picked her up from the ground. she could only nod her head even though she was not quite sure what was going on.
* * *
ultimately.. everyone in school had to don full armour and even guns to eliminate the creatures.. they had received news that a group of four creatures were found in this particular plaza... a search for them took place...
somehow.. when she was there.. she felt uneasy.. she could hardly concentrate on her mission.. whenever she heard someone screaming... "it's there! we've found them!"... "kill them all!" ... "let's go! they are there!"... she would feel really afraid and she would panic.. it was a strong feeling that overwhelmed her.. she just felt that those creatures... it would hurt her to kill them...
on her own.. she came to this place... and opened the door.. there were four people inside.. one of them was an!
"search the place!" an said.
she proceeded to comb the area like everyone else.. but did not open the enormous cupboard in front of her... she quickly left the place.. but upon hearing a loud shout from an.. she went in again..and was shocked by what she saw...
the cupboard was open... the yellow creature was confronted by an and company.. an was pointing her rifle at it.. and the poor creature was visibly shaken.
"die!" an shouted as she fired her rifle...
"no!" she screamed and with a reflex... she put up her hand.. and to everyone's surprise.. a wheel of power shot from her hand and the bullet from an's rifle stopped in mid-air.
it was then when she realized her past... memories from her past came back to her.. she actually came from where those creatures belong.. she was the princess of that unspoken land.. and these were here to protect her.. how could she let any harm come to them!
an was shocked: "you traitor! you are one with them!" the rest of the party was equally alarmed.
she had no choice but to quickly chant: "your memories would be erased... you will not remember this." they scoffed:"don't be silly! we will report you!" but as she left the room and returned.. they indeed do not remember anything and were left motionless. from nowhere.. she handed them each a glass of liquid and as they drank it.. they returned to normal and left. she quickly set the creature off..
listening to: clay aiken -- invisible
an adventure... part 1
the prestigious imperial college... this was the first time she set foot here... she looked around... dressed in her brand new uniform... her freshly permed curls and a tinge of excitement. she looked around.. for someone she know. however, so many people whom she bet she knew all walked away like strangers. finally, she caught hold of b.
"b! you're here too!" she said in relief.. finally.. a friend!
"yeah.. i'll be here for three months.. some exchange programme stuff. you?"
"oh.. three months. i'm here for a new term.. i'll be here til i graduate."
"cool! okie.. see ya around then." b then left with her own friends while she looked on. didn't they used to be on pretty good terms? oh well.. things do change don't they?
she then looked ahead... everyone was rushing to the public hall... for some performance or orientation stuffs. she quickyl moved towards the same direction.. and took a seat number at the entrance.
the hall was full of people.. the stage was filled with crew members setting up for a live band performance. she looked at her number... 2130. where on earth would her seat be? wherever she looked.. the numbers were way different from hers.. she even saw her family members seated somewhere in the crowd.. what was going on? family members were invited too? but she soon gave up on that and concentrated on finding her seat.
finally.. she gave up. the band was starting.. and the seat was nowhere in sight. she had no choice but to settle on somewhere near. she found a row of empty seats in the middle of the hall and just sat down.. to heck with the numbers. then somehow.. even before she realized it.. she was chatting with someone sitting behind her.
the music played on.. the crowd was totally going wild and the atmosphere was just.. high. everything just started to sound like real noise to her.. what was all these craze about? it seemed like some popular school band was performing and some girls just went crazy about it.. she was just about to join in the fun when someone suddenly sat next to her.
"it's my seat you are sitting on." that someone said.
she looked up and who she saw was a young chinese boy. perhaps of her same age. he had short hair... big eyes.. clean-shaven and was totally cute... really cute.
"i'm sorry.. but i really can't find my place..." she tried to defend herself.
"it's alright." he flashed a kind smile.. one that anyone would expect from a kind senior to a blur junior for not knowing where to sit on the first day of school.
she must have blushed a little bit as they both watched the performance in silence between them. they must have said something eventually... and went on to have a nice chat. a kind senior... a cute one at that as well.. school might not be that bad.
listening to: clay aiken -- invisible
a running nose...
i'm sick.. coughing.. heavy head...runny nose.. and i'm starting to sneeze.
ooh. bad time for this man. exams coming and i spend my days drifting in and out of consciousness... haha.. totally can't stay awake for more than 3 hours without feeling a pain in my head.. haha.
well well... i'm totally sickish now.. had better be better tomorrow!!
listening to: clay aiken -- invisible
