i'm here... saying nothing.
what's more to say anyway?
i suddenly want to compile some stuffs.. just too bored on a crazy sunday afternoon (non-stop stats mugging later.. so just let me vent out some frustration first)
My Favourite Men (Clap clap clap!)
1. Lt. Roy Mustang (Full Metal Alchemist
2. Tsukishima Yukito/Yue (CCS)
3. Cho Hakkai , Genjo Sanzo (Saiyuki)
4. Wakamiya Kyou (Alice 19th)
5. Sagara Sousuke (Full Metal Panic!)
6. Rurouni Kenshin (Rurouni Kenshin)
still will have more to come. haha
My Bad Habits... TO CHANGE!
1. Nail biting.. or i'll never get to Hamasaki Ayumi
2. Cutting my hair... or i'll never get to Hamasaki Ayumi. haha
3. Disliking people... it's just a trigger. i'm sorry~ haha
4. Being sarcastic...then again.. it's inborn.. i can't change.
5. Slacking.. right.. shall change that in an hour!
haha.. this entry is a total waste.
listening to: love psychedelico -- everybody needs somebody
women nowadays.
what's up with women nowadays? or the so-called modern women? what is up?
the channel 8 show on tv now... i dislike it so much that i really don't bother to remember the title really.. is totally giving out the wrong messages...
independent women don't necessarily have casual sex or ideas... it's plain bulls**t... modern women don't go around asking guys out... talking about whether they can "hook up" with that other guy in gym... have boyfriends that don't last for a week... wake up people... a b-grade and cleaner copy of
sex and the city? oh please.. save me the agony.
i'm not saying that all women don't do this... i'm just saying.. don't portray all these as a typical trait of a modern woman.. a modern woman can have a long-lasting boyfriend mind you.. so what's up? duhz. boycott this lousy show man...
i'm not a feminist.. thus i say.. stop belittling men! i don't think all guys are great and i certainly don't love them THAT much.. but at least.. don't disturb the balance of the world will ya? and stop all the feminist talk.. be it singapore or taiwan or whatever...
it's getting on my nerves.
listening to: penny dai -- hao gan jue
unknown. unthinkable
you know.. i don't even understand myself anymore.
every minute...every moment.. i am doing things that i don't understand. that i myself don't understand. i fully knew that if i were to continue.. i would lose all grounds. i would lose all the chances that i.. perhaps have.. even if it was just something sooo slim..
but i chose to do what could have been devastating. i fully presented what was happening in a way that would render me as failure. but i did. and i don't understand why i did. i would suppose that i did so because i wanted to have another kind of victory... regaining all the fortresses despite my means and measures. this would have proven my worth totally.
but i know that won't happen. i have lost all my fortresses in the battle.. who am i fighting against? i don't even know.. and i talk about being in a battle. i'm perhaps battling myself. my consciousness vs. my dreams. i know my consciousness would be the ultimate winner.. putting me straight back to where i belong. but my dreams cloud my judgement.. getting over the better of me.
i want to forsake the battle on this piece of land and move over to another. but, as i've said.. my dreams clouds my visions.. and yes.. i'm still stuck in this fruitless battle... knowing that when the last day comes... my men would have died and i myself, the last man standing.. would look failure in the eye and end whatever there has been too.
yet.. i'm not on the track to ending this war. i was so close to victory.. then an indecisive mind marked my failure.
i've tried, i've fallen.
listening to: shin -- hai kuo tian kong
good intentions
though i've tried, i've fallen
i have sunk so low
i'm messed up, better i should knows
so don't u come round here and tell me "i've told you so"
apparently, i'm now super stuck in school.. an event supposed to take place at 10am is now called off.. and i would have to wait til 12pm for my co stuffs...
sadded...they have to tell me it's cancelled just when i approach nus~ pretty rare that i'm early you know... haha.. wrong timing.
anyway.... recently i'm venturing into english lyrics.. i guess it's sorta more.. reflective in many ways.. as in i can be very reflective compared to if i were to write in just chinese..
ooh. boring. i'm rotting here..
listening to: sarah mclachlan -- fallen
proven wrong
and as the fact proves...
it doesn't even need three days.
one. it needed only one.
listening to: nothing
on the go.. but then again.
back on track?
it seems like that...
but then again... three days. four at most.
and it will all go back to the same.
unsettling... but yet.. what can be done?
too much to think about.. or perhaps oversensitive here.
once again.. a reminder to myself.
nothing. absolutely NOTHING is happening.
listening to: chemistry -- your name never gone
revelry
it broke. the link between us.
everything changes. u did. me too.
wah.. tonight's concert was pretty good.. though i fumbled quite a bit.. haha.. pretty nervous.. first time as a cellist.. first time having my name written in the member's lists under cello section.. first time looking at the conductor during a concert from a different angle.. all these add up to quite a lot of pressure..
but i'm glad that some feedback has been pretty good so far..haa
oooh.. stats test tml.. die. sometimes.. it's like.. u know u will confirm flunk.. but still u cannot totally just ignore it.. hahaa.. sadded
listening to: leeds -- silent goodbye
a title for me. for you. for us.
we don't talk anymore.
perhaps this is how we survive each other
busy week.. killer. co practices... tests... killer stats.... projects... two in fact.. and whole load of assignments... wow.. four more weeks to exams and i can totally foresee a battle of waterloo...
i must first thank my lucky stars for giving me a b+ in my biz law mod.. cuz i didn't know it actually take up quite a few percentage of my final results... spent more than half the time reading my textbook... for the FIRST time.. and also for my jap lang.. it's been pure ... sheer luck which helped me through this. thank you so much.
had jiao zi today with candy..... oooh.. i swear i shall have 20 of them soon.
met up with siva, chuanz, wanz, shuz, nez and junming today at lips.. went pretty late cuz of co practices.. so pretty wasted.. wished i could have spent more time with them! always nice to meet buddies! hehe.. talked about so many things as usual... hehe.. what an enjoyment..
listening to: blue -- breathe easy
