in the face of a new year.. i can only use grim to summarize 2003.
people died.. the latest one would be canto-pop star, anita mui. okie.. that's crap right.. there are people dying every year. but it just seems that.. those we know.. whether on screen or in real life.. they die in larger numbers this year. okie. dun laugh yeah. it's meant to be serious.
good things happened tooo.. but sometimes.. we are just gripped by the sadder things in life. u remember heartbreaks better than the laughters. u remember deaths better than the births. u remember epidemics better. it's pretty sad. but life goes on..u move on. time never stops.
this year.. well.. exciting to me. i've been through so many things.. so many stages of life... from getting to job.. to getting back to school.. everything kinda overwhelms me especially at the last half of the year, where everything happened.. so fast.. so much.. i could hardly see my way really.
but some things are certain... and i'm very very grateful for that. my family, my friends... my life. sometimes.. i just feel so glad that i've made it to yet another year... another "new" chapter of my life... it may not be a bed of roses. it may not be the best of everything.. but i'm alive. at least i'm still here.. trying to make a difference. i just want to do things i like and enjoy doing them. music, for one, is the thing that i treasure the most. i treasure my ability to do music, even though i'm still pretty much amateurish. so in 2004, i shall let go of constraints and really do what i like.
i have to thank people.. so many people along the way.. making my 2003 a memorable, despite of it being more melodramatic than ever. these people... too much to name really.. has made me grown up. even til the very last minute of 2003. i've learnt from them.. i've moved on.
so what do i have for new year resolutions?
1. diet -- bloody hell. this has gotta be done.. from the very first day of 2004! or i'll look really awful for feb. haha. and my levis.
2. keep my hair -- and stop drooling over SHORT nice haircuts.
3. practice harder at my cello -- to fulfil my bach suite no.1 dream.
4. study hard -- a new year always gives me a new start. i feel refreshed.
5. do more genres of music -- and stop getting stuck at what i suck best (read: boring ballads)
6. drop my crush -- haha.. well this is inevitable. a new year always spell a new start right? haha... same rule that applies to returning money before the new year. i'm tired to go on.. tired of crushes... and i just wanna concentrate on my music and studies. haha.. how shortlived. i'll just stick to my roy mustang from FMA.
farewell 2003. let's all wish 2004 will be a better year for everyone.
listening to: chemistry -- your name never gone
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