...stress will.
once again i'm not putting up hyesung's picture in my entry because it's getting sad and bad... as in my mental condition.. and my life. hahaa.. okie.. that rhymed a little bit~! i'm sick~!
i'm getting all cranky. i don't know why. i think it's the stress or perhaps it's really the weather. the weather's been bad you know. rain and stuffs.. today it rained so hard that i thought it would last forever.
today i was secretly unhappy. or perhaps annoyed. and maybe a little irritated. by what? haha.. by some comments. i don't think the person who said it meant anything else but i took it very hard. i don't know why i did. i felt uncomfortable.. like something's weighing in me. i wanted to snap and jump.. the mental images were running through my mind... the scenes that would follow if i really DID snap.
but i didn't. because i think i'm overreacting. because i think i'm being overly sensitive. because i think i'm kicking a big fuss out of nothing. because i think i suck. yes i suck. so i lived with it.. and until now, as i relate to everyone who sees this.. i'm still feeling sore about it. but i know when i wake up tomorrow morning.. i'll be fine again. i would have forgotten all about this and i'll return to the happy me. the normal me. the me whom everyone sees everyday.
not like this me is good. this me is not good. this me laughs so much that it can kill. this me is rowdy, noisy and temperamental. this me is.. a bad me. but i don't have so many mes to show the world. but i don't have another better me. all mes suck.
but i'm happy. this me is happy at the moment. haha... oh no i'm confused... which me am i talking abOUT?!
like i told my friends... i have split personalities. so maybe it's not me you're talking to.
listening to: vicky zhao -- jian jian
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