it doesn't make sense... like how some things go out of hand. like how some things just bloody blows up in your face and you just f**king don't understand why.
i did once try to understand the situation. in fact... i'm starting to think if i made the correct decision. i've done wrong things all my life. but i try not to regret them. it's important that i don't regret things that i've done... doing... or would do. because that would just kill me.
i don't want to kill myself. i don't want this to kill me. but i know things will change. in fact, it had changed so much.
it was twice snipped off at the bud... just that this time it's faster. way faster than i thought.
it pushed me into the strange situation.. when i'm left with myself. it probably is going to happen again.
well.. just my luck.
listening to: loveholic -- rainy days
whatever you want here
