YOUR.JULIET - Flowers Of Tomorrow

beauty of violence

put quentin tarantino and the drama csi together and what do you get?

heart-throbbing, seat-gripping, nails-biting episode of violence and blood... all at its best.

you see, if an episode of a drama is that compelling for me to actually start writing in my blog for the sake of it, you know how good it is. i was practically screaming away and held my breath, praying that the victim in this season finale (nick, by the way, was kidnapped and thrown into a coffin, buried with 12 hours of oxygen supply)... and i'm telling you.. this is MY KIND of violence. totally..

but well, unless you watch it, you won't understand me. but surely if you've seen other quentin tarantino stuffs.. you'll know his magic - music behind sadistic scenes, big cinematic-feel scenes... you don't know what you missed.

wow.. it's end of july already. that's too fast.. way too fast man. school's opening.. my job ends this friday.. i'm actually missing school. who am i kidding?

i slipped and fell at home yesterday. because i ran out of the toilet, wanting to open the door for my mother who just got back from the market.. so i slipped.. flew... my arm scrapped the tv beside me and CRASHED.. i landed on my bum. so now.. it is a pain in my @ss. literally.

and what is it with that superstar show? i'm telling you... JONES SHI KANG JUN is the true superstar of singapore (because i heard him do live at the zpop concert). no fight. no one even comes close.

listening to: jin roh ost - grace omega

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coming to terms

it's pretty much a growing up thing. a phase that leads up to the big day when i'm 21.. when i step into adulthood. am i the only person who thinks about such things? and my 21st birthday is still two months away. lolz... am i kicking too big a fuss over this?

but still.. i see it as a reason for myself to actually start looking at my life and fix all the wrong things that should have been right. and probably the first thing to do is to come to terms with so many things.

i have come to terms with people excluding me out of their lives. it used to bug me a lot. seriously. i always feel left out when people don't include me in something, even when i wouldn't include some of them in my life. but it's the feeling of having it and then possessing the power to reject it. it's kinda wrong isn't it, the mentality in itself. is it just me or is it in everybody actually? maybe i'm too convicted to admit that i'm wrong... but then again... oh well. yes.. i'm coming to terms with it. i can't be in everybody's life can i?

coming to terms with this also means that i face the fact that not everybody likes me as much as i want them to be. yes.. sometimes i'm just this conceited bitch who feels that everyone ought to like me. yet again, it's my thirst for the power to reject, instead of being rejected. it really bugged me a lot for a recent period of time. but alas.. kudos to my forgetfulness, i got over it really quickly. i guess i'm making progress~

i'm also trying to come to terms that no matter how hard i try... i'll just be this one person who will never ever look or act as good as i wished i was. it's all about being realistic. i'm born like this... i should just accept who i am, shouldn't i? but i still feel bitter sometimes.. maybe i can only resolve this when i'm thirty.

listening to: clazziquai -- she is

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initially. eventually. finally.

i always love meeting my old friends.. for a nice cuppa, for a good talk, for catching up with the good old days...

yesterday, i went to an old friend, geraldine's birthday party over at bukit batok. i deliberated for a while.. the usual reasons.. lazy, lethargic, not wanting to move my ass around. but eventually i did, and so did thong jian and qiaoyan. we went to get her present at this lingerie shop in wisma... trust me i never knew lingerie can cost THAT much.. seriously. i think i need to review the ones i have.

oh yeah but anyway.. when we got to the house (took us quite a while because thong simply have a very bad way of dealing with directions and addresses. we called geraldine twice on our way cuz we were lost. haha), there were lotsa people already. i would have enjoyed myself better if the weather wasn't this DARN HOT. i'm telling you, i'll die of a heatstroke soon.

then hongjie and sheena came and it was like a mini gathering all over again. good old times~ i haven't seen sheena in sooo long but she's still as pretty as ever. haha~~ hongjie drove and so we went for a spin before geraldine's cake-cutting ceremony. i kept wanting hongjie to do the drift.. too into initial d~ haha..

after the party, we went for more drinking. haha. thong couldn't join us cuz he had to wake up early the next day. we were supposed to go holland village but eventually we ended up at orchard road hahha.. we stayed at starbucks and chatted til 12+ ... until we met this pervert who was taking pictures of sheena, we suspect (i don't wanna tell the full story because i'm just plain lazy).. we tried to catch up with him but we missed. dang.

well anyway... people are getting on my nerves at this very moment. that convicted attitude.. just drives me nuts. but never mind...

my new d500c handphone will keep me happy for a long time (when i get the cable and start putting all my laogong's songs inside. MUAH)... yes i bought it.. neat~

i feel like drifting~~

listening to: boa -- girls on top

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