as if my life is not exciting enough... i have to do something to add on to it. now i'm caught in another dilemma and it's something that.. i don't see myself coming out of. even if i do... it would most likely end up with a wrong decision made.
so i applied for another job. well.. this time, as a transplant counsellor. but here's the catch...
i'm liking my current job.. i mean i'm surprised, but i've grown to like it. it's very much due to the people around me. my colleagues and my managers... it's not easy to find co-workers who can click with you so easily, is it? i still think i can do something more challenging.. but then.. getting used to something can be so powerful. it stops you from doing something else... it stops you from exploring.
working in a hospital setting is something i've always wished for. maybe too much tv in the past... maybe it's been glamourized. and thus... maybe my aspiration to become a counsellor could all be due to misconception. now that i face it.. i wonder if i'm suitable for it. facing grieving families... can this be something that i can handle?
perhaps i'm too young.. perhaps i need more life experience.. perhaps i need some time before i become emotionally stable (because i know for now, i'm extremely volatile). perhaps this IS the job for me.. but not now.
but do opportunites come by again?
listening to: fish leung -- qin qin
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