maybe because i'm chinese.. or maybe i just wanna give myself a second chance at making (and hopefully keeping) new year resolutions, i always felt more.. i don't know.. relevant when it comes to the lunar new year.
the past year have been crazily different. i moved from one big phase to another.. breaking off from the education system after 15 years... going into the society where suddenly, everything i say or do matters. gone are the days when i can fade into the background, disturbing no one with anything that i'm doing. now i have to held responsible for everything i say, i did not say, i do, i did not do. i'm not lying when i say i want to go back to school... ironic. since i'm working in one. grrr.
so daniel (my korean boy) was right.. i'm an adult now. guess i never really felt it when i was still in school. but now .. yeah.. oh wells. i think i can survive. well, i have to!
i'm 23, i'm 24 in lunar terms.. i'm a working adult.. i need to start saying truthfully what i wanna say.
to my family.. thanks for the support, thanks for putting up with me (no thanks to everything though. hmph!). let's spend a good new year in malaysia~ hee haH~!
to my friends who are always there. thanks for being there the past year~ i know i've thrown tantrums.. about work, about the lack of it at first, about lack of a love life, about blah this blah that.. i know i'm a whine. but i know you guys love me.
to those who still owe me money.. you know what, i don't care anymore. owing money through the new year is bad luck but guess what? that's really YOUR problem. i'm sick and tired of asking all the time so.. well.. good luck to you. at least it shows i'm financially a better planner.
to my lovely colleagues, thanks for helping me and showing me the ropes. i can't use the excuse that i'm new anymore, that saddens me a bit .. but anyways.. i swear i will do a better job. i mean it. and i mean it when i say... i lub you guys like i lub chocolate cake!
to my newly found colleague-ship with some in the office, thanks for allowing me to make you guys laugh (come on, admit it. I AM AMUSING.) thanks for allowing me to know you guys as well, and i thank providence for the chance. i hope all of us can bond better in the future!
to those whom i don't talk to so often now, i still think of you guys. but it's such that i don't know what to say to you guys sometimes... topic runs out but i miss the days we had. i'm sure there was the bond between us that made the good old days good.
to those whom i used to dislike... or maybe am still disliking, there must be a reason why i dislike you. maybe the reason is childish, i may have outgrown it already. hopefully i will reconcile my dislike and one day, i can give you guys a nice big hug (although impossible for some still, i believe)
to the first guy whom i thought i fell in love with, all i can say is... too bad for you that you've missed me. i'm too good for you and i never really believed a word you said about the recent incident.
to the second guy whom i thought i fell in love with, well.. i don't hate you. it's not your fault. bad timing.
to that taxi driver who nearly hit me today... i don't even want to think of what i want to say to you.
happy chinese new year!
listening to: fukuyama masaharu -- tokyo
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