now... if only i have a reason to explain my crankiness... i would really truly extremely very entirely be grateful for one.
i'm cranky. and i suspect that it's because that i didn't have the chance to take my revenge on a particular person from co. i still remember how he ran me down and killed me. (you can read my may 2004 archive. lolz) crying for an hour non-stop was a big deal to me. and the simple thought of it still pricks me. and i still don't know why i felt so badly... did i take it too hard? i think i did...
i'm cranky. and i suspect that it's also because i'll (i'm surprised) miss my comm members....
daida.. i will miss insulting and scolding you. and all the compliments you give me (although they only come when you need my help. lolz)
andrew... i will miss your exasperated look.. and the planning that we always have to plot against that particular someone. haha..
minxian... i will miss your help.. cuz you were the one who really helped me a great deal. and your out-of-this-world sense of humour. no one comes close, man. no one.
how tze... i will miss your comments during the meeting.. and how you add on to my jokes. lolz.
teck min... i will miss your lame jokes (you are lamer than me. haha)... and your silly antics.. and yes.. even your poking fun at my size. lolz.
mun ssui.. i will miss your jokes too... you are such a gem to be with~
hahaa.. i never really served my purpose.. but... i managed to scrape through a year. nice and calmly. which means i'll be a bad predecessor and disappear.. hahahh... oops.
i'm cranky. and i suspect that it's because of all the last minute things (again) that came on today. i really don't understand. i mean.. i don't comprehend some mentalities. or perhaps once again.. it's just me thinking too much and taking it too hard. i think it's likely that. lolz. now tell me... if you are given more than a week to decide on doing something... then you only do it on the day itself.. without even telling the person who's in charge of the thing that you are supposed to do... it just shows how determined you are to do the thing.
i conclude that it's just me. but it's the same me that insists on little things like that. it may be unimportant.. it may be bullshit... it may not even be allowed to exist but it's me.
no one is obliged to entertain me.
see? i'm cranky.
listening to: clazziquai -- after love (female version)
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