i've always told myself not to blog more than once a day.. or at least, combine everything together and for peace's sake, not have more than an entry under one date. but today i break this rule, and it's really because i have frustrations inside me that are growing at such an alarming rate, they threaten to blow up my brain, leaving that particular mass of muscles in a messy puddle.
i hate hate hate (and i can't express this enough with just this word) being stressed. and apparently, contrary to what i've always thought, exams DO stress me out. i hate to admit but yes, the fact is proven. all the sickish symptoms that i'm experiencing, all the lethargy, all the ill feelings.. these are, i believe, symptoms of stress.
please do not ask me why my first time with stress is coming so late. i have no idea. perhaps because this is like... the last lap. so the thought of drowning while at my last lap is frightening enough to set of physiological symptoms. well... never trust the words of a lazy psychology student. it may be bullsh*t for all you know.
also, i'm jealous. jealous of everyone around me. because everyone has things i don't possess. the saying that goes something like... don't think about what you don't have, think about what you have... is encouraging but impractical. okay.. at least in my case. all that fills my mind? THINGS THAT I DON'T HAVE. because if i were to think about things i have, i'm done in two seconds.
kinda sad, as i think about it. no this, no that, no these, no those.. the list goes on forever.
listening to: myself
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